As I sit here on Mother's day and hold my new little boy I am incredibly thankful to Dr. Levin and his staff for giving me the opportunity to have this little miracle.
I will start off by saying just as so many woman on here say... I did a stupid thing when I was young and never expected to be able to have anymore children. My husband and I were very very young when our first child was born we met when we were in middle school and had a baby shortly after we started high school. Our second son was born a couple years later and we started talking about having my tubes tied. We decided at the age of 21 to go ahead with tying my tubes that we were sure we wanted no more children. I was lying on the bed waiting for them to take me for the surgery, my Dr. was begging me to really reconsider this and I kept thinking to myself I don't want to really do this but for some reason I went ahead and let them wheel me back there. I woke up feeling like I had made a huge mistake and like a part of me was gone now. I thought that feeling would pass, I had two beautiful boys and a wonderful husband and I kept telling myself we made the best decision for us and the fact we were so young.
Well the feeling never passed I would cry myself to sleep some nights wishing I had not been in such a hurry to make the decision, I would cry when I saw babies at the store or on TV, I would sob when I found out my friends or family was pregnant. I never told anyone how I felt not even my husband because I was afraid of hearing "I told you so" or "Get over it there is nothing you can do about it now".
One night after my husband left for work I Googled "tubal reversal" and Dr. Levin's name was the first one to pop up, I was elated but skeptical, thinking to myself that it sounded to good to be true. I waited awhile and dropped a few hints about how neat it would be to have another baby and just tried to feel my husband out before I said anything. Then the night came I decided to tell him. We were talking and I started crying and years of hurt, pain and frustration came pouring out about what a mistake I had made and how I wish I could take it back. He kissed me on the forehead and said "If we would not have had the surgery done we would have had another baby by now". I used that as my opening and told him "Oh really, because I found this Dr. in Louisville...".
That night we got on-line and looked and looked at anything we could find about reversals and this Dr. Levin. He told me to pick the Dr. I wanted and he would make it happen. I called Levin's office the next day and had my surgery scheduled very quickly. The staff was amazing and very helpful and Dr. Levin called us, talked to us, walked us through everything and his phone call was what really sealed the deal for us. He made us feel like this was really a true possibility now and somewhere deep down I knew I was going to finally have the baby I had dreamed of for so long.
Surgery day came and I was on top of the world, I could not wait to get my 6 weeks over so we could begin to work on having this baby. My 6 weeks came and went and weeks turned into months and finally months turned into a year but there was no baby. I called Dr. Levin one day and told him we had been trying for so long but we were having no luck. He had us make an appointment for an analysis and try a couple other things and told us if those test results came back OK he would have us come down and see him. We waited a couple weeks the results of his tests all came back OK and I called Dr. Levin again and he made an appointment for me to come back and see him. I was so thankful for how kind he was and the follow-up care he offered (there is no other Dr. that would have done that for us). At the time he found nothing out of the ordinary but continuously reassured us and told us not to give up he felt like it would happen when it was time.
After 2 and a half years and being told numerous times the surgery was a success and we were both physically fine we sat down one day and decided that for some reason known only to God that we were not going to get our miracle baby. We decided to move on with our lives and stop trying it was one of the hardest things I had ever done. One week later I was preparing to go out with some friends and just took a test because I had one more left (and was still secretly holding out hope.) I glanced quickly at it and not seeing the 2 lines thought “Oh well” laid it down and left for the evening. About an hour into dinner I got a phone call from my husband asking if I had even bothered to look at the test I took earlier, I told him I had and it was negative and that is when he proceeded to tell me that I had better check again because the test he was holding was positive. He came and picked me up and we immediately went to the store and bought 2 more tests just to be sure and they were all POSITIVE.
The feeling that day was amazing only the couples who have experienced it can possibly know what feeling I am talking about. It was one of the best days of our lives and we know have a cute little story to tell people about how he knew I was pregnant before I did.
Logan Anthony was born 8 months later weighing 6 lbs 11 oz and finally completing the family we had waited so long for.
Had it not been for Dr. Levin this never would have been possible and I am forever grateful to him and his staff for helping me be able to experience motherhood again. For those of you who think that it will never happen or it is taking to long just remember I felt the same way, thought it would never happen and as soon as I relaxed and concentrated on something other than getting pregnant, it happened. Now if I just convince him we are ready for baby #4.....
Trish and Kevin Larussa